To my bubbly and perky friend, you know who you are :) I'm really happy for you :) Can't say that enough.
And I love you, friend! :) We should talk some more! I feel like an invisible link of friendship tightened all the more between us tonight.. Hahaha. We've always been friends, but I somehow felt like something was missing.. It might just be me, but anyway :)
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I just realized: I have no College friends to invite to my wedding. It's not that I don't want to invite them... But we're keeping our guestlist to the bare minimum - meaning, I'm only inviting friends who know Jai or have met Jai or Jai knows all too well through my stories.. And he's doing the same as well. I don't want to introduce him to anyone that night - gusto ko, pag andun ka, no need for introduction, you know either me/Jai and if you're my friend, Jai knows you, maybe not by face, but by name :)
Back to my non-existent College friends... I have good friends from College, I really do! But it's either we didn't keep in touch after College, or we basically just drifted apart... Me living in the other end of the world opposite UP also contributed (a little bit..... I'm just making excuses now :)). I've been thinking why... I think one of the reasons why is because I went home regularly to LP every Tuesday afternoon (bec Wednesday is wash day in UP, meaning no classes!), came back for school on Thursday morning, and went back home again on Friday afternoon. So basically, it was just school-boarding house-LP for me back then. Yes, for 4 years. I easily got homesick back then.. And ooookkaaayy, I had a regular Wednesday date. Looking back on it now, it really was not worth it. Not because of the person (ok, a little bit..), but because I set myself up to losing myself in that relationship. Like, my whole world revolved around it. Maybe if I stayed in UP during Wednesdays and mingled with my batchmates, I would probably have forged BETTER and LASTING friendships.
Whattaloser.
So, please no questions when you don't hear the host during our wedding say: "Bom's college friends, your turn for a picture with the bride and groom." Yiiikkkess!
I'm envious of Jai because he has such good memories with his college friends.. They remain close up till now.. And even have a pact that they'll have babies at the same time so that if they're all boys, they can be classmates in San Beda (why not UP, right??! Hay!) or something.. Hay :(
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I'm looking for a "me" activity. By "me" activity, I mean - an activity I can do regularly which can take my mind off things. I was thinking it can be shopping BUT obviously it's not sustainable. Window-shopping is the same thing, I will just get lured to actually buying something. Jai has football. Khalel has, well, his own set of things here at home... I have nothing :(
Am I being selfish if I want time off regularly from all the roles I have to play? A temporary escape from being a mom, a wife, a daughter, a sister, an officemate, a subordinate? An escape where I don't do anything for someone else. I'm just there... for myself. Is that selfish? :( Are moms not allowed to get that kind of break? Or even just think about it? Am I a bad mom if I think about it? And worse, do something about it?
There's a yoga class in our office every Wednesdays.. Maybe I should try it.. I bought a yoga mat actually :) Baka hindi ko kaya :( I can't even reach my toes, for crying out loud!! But will still try. Wushaaaaaaa.
Do you have any other suggestions? :)
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Hey Bom, pareho tayo. :( Although I do have college friends that I know I will invite to my wedding (if and when that happens OMG), my connection with them is not as deep or nurtured as with my high school or after college friends. Like you, umikot din yung buhay ko with one guy (yiikes). It's never good when you have to sacrifice friends for one guy, and while it's understandable to want to spend every minute of every day with the person you love, we still need other people (especially friends) to make us complete and happy.
And in relation to that :) - I don't think it's selfish of you to want a "me" time. :) You're not just a mother and a wife, you're also you and you need a moment of your day to nurture that. :)
bom, is there something that you really, really like to try for a long time? why not do it? some lessons (cooking, baking, etc) or there are some free activities on weekends sponsored by fullybooked or check clickthecity :)
sometimes naisip mo lang you can't pero you can pala. try lang ng try ;) it's not too late to try new things. hehehe!
who is the perky friend? haha, just one name rang a bell to me. chismis. haha!
and waah bom, i got to meet veluz because a friend is going to be a veluz bride. OMG. hahaha, now i know why you wanted to be a veluz bride :)
Hey Bomsky... :)
Don't think that you're being a bad mom/wife for wanting to have a "me" time. I just can't remember where I read/heard it but it's actually encouraged for moms to have a time for themselves because it helps keep the relationship with the family healthy. Parang ang reason is that it helps you not see your family as burden or parang hindrance to your growth. And it also keeps you from getting bored with all the things that you have to do.
So I say, go and have your "me" time... whatever that is! :)
Cross-stitching? LOL
For some reason, I feel like cross-stitching. I've slacked off on my reading so siguro another project nalang muna in the meantime.
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