Arrrgggh, makakapatay talaga ako ng tao minsan. Or sige, sabunot na lang. Ang landi, anak ng buwiset. Hindi naman ako mahilig mag-mura pero I might just make an exception.
At at at, nakakainis na napapa-galit niya ako kahit hindi ko naman sya kilala.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Sunday, April 13, 2008
off to bed in a while
I cannot believe this is my first time in a long long time to actually sit in front of our computer here at home and look at my Multiply and Friendster pages. Samantalang dati, everyday naka-log-in ako... Haaay. I don't even know some of the programs installed here anymore, para akong bumalik sa ancient times. Someone give me a life please :)
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Don't you hate bloggers who write all these articles na parang panama sa gf/bf/ex-bf/ex-gf nila? Like, splashing every tiny detail of their problems sa Internet as it happens (tapos minsan alam naman nila na mababasa yun ng gf/bf nila). Or kung hindi naman every tiny detail, they'll say something like "parang dapat dine-dedicate yung song na 'to para sa'kin ni _____" tapos they'll post the lyrics. Gggrr talaga. I know a blog is like a diary, but people do read it, and if your gf/bf/ex matter to you, bakit kailangan siraan in public? Parang nagpapa-awa pa. Grrrr.
And I don't know why I keep reading their entries. Hehe :)
And dear, there's more to life than your love life ok?
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I have a problem. Na no one can solve. I'm not sure if I like or hate my problem to be quite honest pero I can't do anything about it. And even if there are people who help me, parang momentary relief lang then I'll feel alone again.
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It was Emir's (Jai's brother) graduation last week. We had dinner at Don Henrico's - the catch is, Jai had school so ako ang proxy. It was pretty weird having dinner with his family na wala naman si Jai, who's like my link to them. And I still can't believe I found the courage to show up kahit wala nga si Jai. All of them were there (and if you still don't know by now, they're a lot :)) with their Inah, so ako lang yung parang outsider.
I think I wrote here somewhere na sometimes, I don't know how to act around them, I'm always trying to be safe but not boring din naman. Finding that middle ground is a bit tough :) Like, I always greet them Good Evening, ganun, and I say "po" all the time kaso minsan OA na pala kasi mas bata sa'kin yung mga kapatid niya, so minsan ata feeling nila iniinsulto ko sila. And "po" is not that used naman in Zamboanga ata so baka na-w-weirdohan din sila sa'kin.
I'm really glad I went though :) And I know it made Jai happy too so win-win :)
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Do you sometimes feel you're your worst self when you're with people you love? Mas masungit ka, mas madali ka mainis, you're less patient, etc. Minsan I seriously doubt my capacity to love, but I do know in my heart I love them.
I read somewhere that we feel they're still going to love us no matter what, so it gives us that sense of freedom that we can be monsters at times but they're still gonna be there. Case in point: family. Families stick together no matter what, right? It's not a conscious decision on my part ha to be bad when I'm with them, parang taken for granted lang siguro, hay I don't know... :( Same with Jai.. He goes through hell sometimes admittedly talaga with me kaya may times na I honestly don't know why he's still there. Love is blind nga ata :)
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Don't you hate bloggers who write all these articles na parang panama sa gf/bf/ex-bf/ex-gf nila? Like, splashing every tiny detail of their problems sa Internet as it happens (tapos minsan alam naman nila na mababasa yun ng gf/bf nila). Or kung hindi naman every tiny detail, they'll say something like "parang dapat dine-dedicate yung song na 'to para sa'kin ni _____" tapos they'll post the lyrics. Gggrr talaga. I know a blog is like a diary, but people do read it, and if your gf/bf/ex matter to you, bakit kailangan siraan in public? Parang nagpapa-awa pa. Grrrr.
And I don't know why I keep reading their entries. Hehe :)
And dear, there's more to life than your love life ok?
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I have a problem. Na no one can solve. I'm not sure if I like or hate my problem to be quite honest pero I can't do anything about it. And even if there are people who help me, parang momentary relief lang then I'll feel alone again.
----
It was Emir's (Jai's brother) graduation last week. We had dinner at Don Henrico's - the catch is, Jai had school so ako ang proxy. It was pretty weird having dinner with his family na wala naman si Jai, who's like my link to them. And I still can't believe I found the courage to show up kahit wala nga si Jai. All of them were there (and if you still don't know by now, they're a lot :)) with their Inah, so ako lang yung parang outsider.
I think I wrote here somewhere na sometimes, I don't know how to act around them, I'm always trying to be safe but not boring din naman. Finding that middle ground is a bit tough :) Like, I always greet them Good Evening, ganun, and I say "po" all the time kaso minsan OA na pala kasi mas bata sa'kin yung mga kapatid niya, so minsan ata feeling nila iniinsulto ko sila. And "po" is not that used naman in Zamboanga ata so baka na-w-weirdohan din sila sa'kin.
I'm really glad I went though :) And I know it made Jai happy too so win-win :)
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Do you sometimes feel you're your worst self when you're with people you love? Mas masungit ka, mas madali ka mainis, you're less patient, etc. Minsan I seriously doubt my capacity to love, but I do know in my heart I love them.
I read somewhere that we feel they're still going to love us no matter what, so it gives us that sense of freedom that we can be monsters at times but they're still gonna be there. Case in point: family. Families stick together no matter what, right? It's not a conscious decision on my part ha to be bad when I'm with them, parang taken for granted lang siguro, hay I don't know... :( Same with Jai.. He goes through hell sometimes admittedly talaga with me kaya may times na I honestly don't know why he's still there. Love is blind nga ata :)
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