can you tell my mood?

A very slow day today :( I'm sleepy, tired, sad, and bored.

SLEEPY and TIRED: I haven't slept for more than 3hours straight for the past 7mos or so. And that's including weekends. Now I know why they say motherhood is a 24/7 job - and I think they meant that literally.

I'm really very sleepy :(

SAD and BORED: A bit of sad news here in the office today. 2008 wasn't a good year for me at work for a lot of different reasons. I'm hoping 2009 will be different, and it's actually showing signs that it will be, yeheeeey. I just hope I'll be up to the challenge they're giving me.

But... there are really times na parang ayaw ko na magtrabaho. I can't concentrate too much on work anyways, kasi lagi ko isip si Khalel :( Tsaka minsan kasi di na tumitingin sa'kin si Khalel pag uwi ko :( I don't know how to describe that feeling - I'm happy that he's well taken cared of while I'm away, and it's evident in the way he reacts to Jai's family, but still sana ako pa rin yung nakakagawa. However, I also can't imagine just taking care of him all day everyday, I still need something to keep me occupied at times. I want to feel fulfilled pero hindi ngarag. Ngarag kasi dito sa office :(

Gusto ko mag-business :( Kahit yung sa Multiply lang, yung nagbebenta ng clothes. Gusto ko tuloy mag-crash course in clothes-making/fashion design, buy a couple of sewing machines, hire good sewers, tapos benta ko na lang yung damit sa Multiply. We interviewed someone here at the office for an internship position, and she had a business just like that - her take-home pay every month is 30K net. That's really not bad for someone as young as her (she hasn't graduated from college yet, btw). That amount will be enough na siguro sa mga konti kong luho at para kay Khalel na rin.

And I love clothes, soooo it won't feel like work. That's the best setup, I guess. Haaay, how I wish I can do it.

8/8/08 Alvin and Sara (... and all the smileys)

Sharing with you Alvin and Sara's wedding pictures from their photographer's blogsite:
http://www.benjaminyoungiii.blogspot.com/

Siyempre, yung entry na may Alvin and Sara yung sa kanila :)

Ganda talaga ng pictures :) Pero mahal siyempre hahaha. Wala na kaming guests ni Jai sa wedding namin para ma-afford namin si Ben Young :) I'm sure you guys will understand if you don't get an invite :) Hehehehe :) Joke lang :)

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Jai's challenge to me: STOP WITH THE SMILEYS!

I'm gonna try but not promising anything :D Hirap eh!