Wednesday, July 30, 2008

quotes I liked today

"Be kind for everyone you meet is fighting a great battle."
- Philo of Alexandria

"Love never says: 'I have done enough!'"
- Saint Marie-Eugenie de Jesus

"Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around."
- Leo Buscaglia

"We think too much and feel too little. More than machinery, we need humanity. More than cleverness, we need kindness and gentleness."
- Charlie Chaplin

Thursday, July 24, 2008

who taught you to love?

This is a post by one of Jai's sisters. I keep thinking about the subject of her post and what my answer to it is.

I'm still fumbling for that answer. Or maybe I'm just too jaded right now. Anyway :)

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Who taught you to love?
Princess Jainal (07/02/2008)


So many things have been said about what love is and what it is not. But the only way to really know what it is all about and what it is not is by experiencing it. Romantic, platonic, fatherly, motherly, true, first, only… So many kinds, yet one universal thing—LOVE. We experience it from different people—our parents, siblings, friends, and lovers—but there will be that one person who will mold us on our first and lasting impressions and conceptions of love. This first lesson in love, so indelible, will determine the way we love the people who will enter and leave our lives—whether or not they stay to reciprocate or go away leaving us with scars.

Who taught you to love?

My first lessons in love came in the form of the constant attention, and the genuine concern of my father—in his protective gaze, his gentle and warm embrace, his longing voice, and his naïve attachment—pure, sincere, forgiving, and unconditional.

As a child, I was taught, and I would innocently sing a long with the song, “Nothing’s gonna change my love for you.” The picture still vividly embedded in my memory—Pah driving our antique owner-type jeep would start off the first few lines, and end up with a choir of squeaky voices from each of his little darlings singing along with him. We would do this everytime: on the ride to and from school, to the market, to the shop (because our antique jeep constantly needed something fixed), to our cousins, to the boulevard of Zamboanga’s “acclaimed” scrumptious orange-colored barbeques, or even for just a ride around the city. We would sing our hearts and lungs out until we’ve learned the song by heart. We carefully and naively sung each of the words of the beautiful lyric, not knowing, that the same lyrics will tell the story of the way we love, and will be resonate in each of our encounters of love from then on.

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you


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Sorry, di pa rin ako marunong mag-hyperlink, ito na lang yung site:
http://pjainal.multiply.com/journal/item/9/Who_Taught_You_to_Love

random thoughts today

I'm so forgetful these days. Tipong nakakalimutan ko kung nakapag-toothbrush na ba ako, even only after 5mins of doing so.

And I keep misplacing things, I hate it. I always say I'm good at remembering things and it's unnerving to have to claw around for information that I'm supposed to know already.

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I don't think I'm supposed to be a career woman. I felt it a long long time ago, but I feel it more now.

Or maybe I'm just tired from the daily 8-5 grind. Or maybe this is just a phase. Or not. Or I'm just in the wrong job.

I told my mentor here that I feel a Finance post is not what I really want, but more of a Sales/Mktg Operations kind of job. I badly want to transfer, but another mentor advised me not to leave any job without memorizing the ropes or if I haven't contributed anything brilliant to the team. Well-taken, of course. It's just so hard to perform well if my heart's no longer in it :( Chicken and egg situation, basically.

I'm also not a Process-Management kind of person. I have very little patience for drafting processes/workflows in Visio and interviewing stakeholders for their inputs. Kainis kasi di mabilis yung progress, and the progress actually depends on how cooperative your stakeholders are. I now doubt if I'm being paid more than what I deserve or the job fit is just not there.

I like being on the move all the time and not saddled by inefficiencies of other people. It's not that I'm not a team player - it's just so frustrating if, for example, data I need is not readily available and I'm still expected to deliver the same analysis regardless.

And I hate our office :( It's smack in the middle of nowhere; I'm confined in this huge compound 8hrs every day (even more) and I can't do leisurely walks if I suddenly find myself burned out in the middle of the day. I miss Makati :( And I hate it that I can't go out for short trips to the mall if ever I need to buy a gift for someone.. Dati kasi puwede sa Makati. All my shopping, which isn't a lot these days by the way, should wait till end of the day or worse, during weekends. Come Saturday, however, I'm too tired to shop :(

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Have you ever encountered 2 people who are as different as night and day yet live harmoniously together and who love each other unconditionally? One of life's better miracles talaga.

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Speaking of miracles, I saw this sign in Bubba Gump when we had our "reunion" dinner 2-3wks ago :)

"Miracles happen everyday. Some people don't think so, but they do."

A great pick-upper to think about if you feel like nothing's going your way :)

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

:)

I will go down with this ship.
I won't put my hands up and surrender.
There will be no white flag above my door.
I'm in love and always will be.

- White Flag
Dido


P.S.
Ang cheesy nang konti but what the hell :)

Monday, July 21, 2008

I'm such an awful person.

:(