a man with a plan

I was talking with Jai the other day, and he said something about pursuing a Ph.D after his Master's.

Crap.

First thought: He's so driven, I am eternally turned on. Hahaha.

Second (and the most shallow, not to mention scariest) thought: Wala ka na bang balak pakasalan ako??? Ever??? (Hahaha)
And I did ask him this ha. Hahaha.

Third thought: Why does he have so many plans for himself, and I don't even have a clue as to where I'll be a year from now?

Sure, I want to take up Master's too, but I'm not looking around for good schools. I don't have a single penny to my name. I don't see myself studying exactly a year from now. He's been persuading me to enroll the soonest, kasi "ang bilis lang niyan dadaan. Maya-maya, hindi mo na namalayan, graduate ka na."

Don't get me wrong - I love school. I really want to start reading again, to have group discussions, to study for an exam. Pero, I just don't see myself as a student right now. Maybe it's because I'm earning relatively well. Or because I don't have tuition money (yeah yeah, I have zero saving skills). I really don't know.

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Have I mentioned that I love talking with Jai? :) For all I know, he holds the key to all of life's questions. My life's questions, that is. Hehe. I get to ask him anything, and he always has answers :) I can ask him Physical Education-related questions (i.e. bakit nangangalay ang binti ko bago matulog?) or something entirely earth-shattering (haha, OA), and he always has something nice to say :) I also love it that he opens Wikipedia almost every single day and researches about things he finds interesting. I saw him looking up the definition of "Controlling" (if anyone's interested, that's our job :)) last week. Geek, noh? Hehe, he's far from geeky-looking though :)

We were watching "League of Extraordinary Gentlemen" at home a couple months back, and we were asking each other what's the story behind each of the characters (Dorian Gray, Dr. Jekyll/Mr. Hyde, Tom Sawyer). I ended up Wikipedia-ing them the same night. Huhu, geek. But I was happy that I did it... I'm more "thoughts" (i.e. I want to take up Master's; I wonder who Dorian Gray is) while he's more "action" (i.e. I'll enroll tomorrow; I'll look Dorian Gray up).

What I'm trying to say is: I hope that his I-have-concrete-plans-for-tomorrow sort of thing would rub off on me, the same way that he's got me hooked on this nosy-Mr-Wikipedia habit. SOON, please :)


P.S.
Can I just say, feeling ko bobo ako minsan pag kausap ko siya? :P No, he doesn't make me feel inferior in any way, pero parang masyado siyang malalim mag-isip para sa'kin.

Like, I asked him last week -
"Jai, kung ikaw ay babae, ano ang gusto mong tumutugtog na kanta habang naglalakad ka sa aisle sa wedding mo? Kasi diba, technically, para sa bride yung walking-down-the-aisle-song?"

Isip siya saglit. Ang sagot niya: Secret Garden by Bruce Springsteen.

Search naman ako ng lyrics.

And parang di ko ma-gets ang romantic thought ng kanta. Hahaha. I had to read it several times over to understand. Eh ako, yung mga naiisip kong mga kanta eh puro may literal meaning sa lyrics. Gets niyo ba? Hayyyy. At pag nalaman niyang hindi ko na-gets kaagad ang meaning ng kanta, yikes, turn-off! Wag naman sana :) *cross-fingers*

Kunwari, You're Still the One ni Shania Twain, mga tipong ganun. Literal. Pero no, hindi yan isa sa mga kanta ko. And no, I don't wanna share my songs at the moment :P

my list ;)

I was watching my FRIENDS VCDs over the weekend, and I came across the episode entitled "The One With Frank Jr." I find Giovanni Ribisi amusing and all, but one of the sub-plots in that episode was the "Celebrity List."

The friends tried to come up with a list of 5 celebrities each would want to sleep with, given the opportunity, regardless of being in a relationship. It got me thinking... Who in the world would I want to sleep with?? Ok, not really sleep with, but... you get what I mean :)

Hmmm..

Can I have 2 separate lists? One for local celebrities and one for foreign celebrities? No one's allowed to laugh at my choices, hehe :)

For local (ka-jolog-an!), I guess:
1) Piolo Pascual (kahit bading, papa talaga :))
2) Jake Cuenca (bakit masyadong suwerte si Roxanne?? :()
3) Edu Manzano
4) *mag-iisip pa ako*
5) *mag-iisip pa ako*

For foreign:
1) Patrick Dempsey (gaaah!)
2) Hugh Jackman
3) Adam Levine
4) Jake Gyllenhal
5) Viggo Mortensen

Who's on your list?

from Tinaloy :)

RULES:
1. Write something about/for fifteen DIFFERENT people.
2. You can NOT (read: NEVER) say who they are.
3. If someone asks you which one is about/for them, you are NOT to tell.

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1. Idol kita, hindi mo lang alam.
2. Sobrang ayaw na talaga kita makita, forever and ever. Kinalimutan ko nang nakilala kita.
3. Thank you for reminding me that I'm worth it :) Ikaw rin, sobrang worth it :)
4. Wish I could be a part of your life more often. I wanna see you when you're happy, I wanna be able to hug you when you're down, I wanna be a part of your life's events!
5. I need my peace and quiet sometimes, ok? Pero I understand :)
6. Would really love to see you get your diploma.
7. Minsan nakakainis yung mga hirit mo. Seryoso.
8. It doesn't mean I don't remember you.
9. Para kang bata na kelangan alagaan every minute of every day. Nakakasawa, nakakasuka.
10. Hindi ko gusto yung mga iba mong ginagawa pero love pa rin kita :)
11. Gusto ko makitang masaya ka at fulfilled.
12. Hindi ko alam kung gusto kita makasalubong o hindi. Hindi ako sigurado kung may nagawa akong mali. Naiinis nga ba ako sa'yo o nahihiya lang ako sa mga nagawa ko?
13. I'm happy I can confide to you now. Mas masaya yung parang magkaibigan tayo.
14. Naguguluhan pa rin ako sa'yo. Pero kahit hindi na ako malinawan sa bagay na yun, love kita :)
15. Nakaka-miss ka :( How you doin'? =D

poll

Since I'm a sucker for discussions on just about anything, can I ask your opinions whether or not these should be legalized in the Philippines or not?

- Abortion
- Divorce
- Prostitution

My answers are:
- Abortion - No
- Divorce - Yes
- Prostitution - Yes

I have a few moral misgivings about divorce and prostitution, but in general, if my stand is asked right here and now, my answers above would be it.

I am operating on the general premise that everybody acts out of his own accord and that the legalization of something won't necessarily mean the increase in the number of its occurences. If doing any of the 3 mentioned is beyond a person's character, he won't do it - whether it be legal or not. Heck, prostitution is illegal now, but one need only walk along the stretch of Malate or Quezon Ave to realize just how rampant it is.

I'll stop babbling for now and will wait for your answers :)

You smile and it's okay,
You take my breath away.

:)

kung sino man matamaan

I keep forgetting how good it is to be with you, guys! :) Well, I don't really forget, but it's good to be reminded from time to time.

Thanks for the pats on the back, for the never-ending kuwentos, the "oo bom, rude siya" (hahaha) comments - da best kayo! Of course, I won't take it against you if you say my rants have no basis whatsoever, but the never-wavering understanding where I'm coming from is truly appreciated :) (Okay, I'll stop talking about the rude girl lest I be accused of being demented. Hmpf.)

I'm mighty glad we'll all be working in the same city again! Still not the same as working in the same building, but this will do.

Kulang pa nga tayo nung Friday :( Dun sa kulang: may utang ka pang kuwento, uy!